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Hey... ;)

demonofyoursoul — 2008-06-26T21:47:25Z

Miss u all. Love you all. Sorry this is so short... -Bailz-

counting down

demonofyoursoul — 2008-05-28T07:10:35Z

In exactly six hours and ten minutes, school will be over for me!!!! This summer is going to be jam-packed with events; lots of parties, sleep-overs, movies, moving, swimming, and visiting with relatives! I'm gunna miss all u guys this summer (Darkgurl not included XD *rofl*), but I will be on every so often to write journals, leave notes, etc. I miss u guys already... :'( Oh crap... crying in the middle of school; I'm gunna smear my makeup, but u guys r worth it :) I have 2 get going now, but if u go 2 Penguincute's page, she'll be (hopefully) giving updates on how I am and what I've been doing. K? I love you all so much, and I'll see u guys in three months (maybe less). Bye!!! :'( -Bailee

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demonofyoursoul — 2008-05-23T15:19:22Z

glitter-graphics.com

To my favorite person in the whole wide world!!!!!
Right now, I don't care who knows that we're together.
I want the WORLD 2 know!!!
I love you, and that's all that matters.
I just thought I'd take u on in a challenge;
who can be sexier WITHOUT sex... :D
U got some TOUGH COMEPETITON (me!!!)
R u up 4 the challenge?
in which case, GO!!!!!!

Smile; Bailee loves u!!!!! =D

demonofyoursoul — 2008-05-21T13:57:42Z

I feel happy now :)
Much better.
I've got everything I could ever want, and now I feel like my life is complete.
I just need u here... with me...
You know she doesn't even suspect a thing?
Its truly hilarious.
I feel like Romeo and Juliet. (ur Romeo of course :D )
No one can know about us.
*puts a finger 2 ur lips b4 kissing them*
No one.
Unless u want 2 tell Jessie... O_o
idk.
I just want us to be together; forever.
I'm certain. I've never been so sure that you are meant to be THE ONE.
You know I'm happy.
I hope you're happy 2.
Do you love me?
I love you.
It would be ULTRA SEXY if u proposed 2 me again...
PLZ!!!!!????
I mean, u, and me, fiances.
It makes my heart beat faster 2 think of me as urs.
I wish u were here...
Do u love me?
I love you... :)
It would ease all stress if u would kiss me.
I love you, and always will.
I never stopped loving u.
This summer is gunna be spacy, cuz I have no internet at my house anymore :'( so we can't talk anymore, like we use 2.
But I'm DETERMINED 2 find a way 2 talk 2 u, k?
I love you as much as one heart can bear.
I love you as much as God loves us.
I love you as you love me.
I have 2 go now, but I will hopefully talk 2 u later, k?
I love you so much...

*kiss on ur lips with tongue*

All my love,

-Bailee

My fave necklace: a cross :)

demonofyoursoul — 2008-05-21T13:44:45Z

I'm happy now

demonofyoursoul — 2008-05-21T06:22:02Z

All my friends at school hate me, But I'm happy now. My family doesn't understand me, But I'm happy now. I have you to thank for this happiness. You ARE that happiness. You know that. I love you always. I love you forever. Don't leave me. I've got you, and I won't let you go. You are my everything, and I will follow you into the dark corners of your mind to make you happy because that's just who I am this week. U know who u r, and just listen 2 "Sugar We're Going Down" and think of me. We're suppost to be together... <3 I luv u. All my love, -Bailee PS: I miss all of u guys so much :)

I'm sorry

demonofyoursoul — 2008-05-19T13:30:19Z

Don't start giving me shit becuz I haven't been on. My dad cut off our internet and I'm typing this from school. One of my best friends is mad at me cuz I chucked her headphones at her cuz I was crabby cuz I didn't get alot of sleep.

I miss u all so much. I'm so sorry that I haven't been on, and I won't be on very much anymore unless I'm at Leah's (penguincute) house. I'm so sorry... This really hurts.

I'm not ok. I've been crying so much and I'm always sick and I miss u guys so much. I'm not ok... :'(
I hope I get better soon, but right now I'm suffering and I miss u guys so much.

luv u all,

-Bailee

PS. I'll probably have Leah post alot of my stuff from now on, k?

Waiting is the slowest death

demonofyoursoul — 2008-05-08T04:37:28Z

I've been here for a while now and I can't wait any longer if you were really into me wouldn't the connection be stronger? I've been sitting here for forever now and you don't wanna show your face You know I love it when you talk back but when you say nothing at all...? I've been dying here for a while now and you haven't come around I want results, boy and I just don't see them in you Where are you? Its been a while since I've seen your face and when you've been gone my heart has been breaking inside out so as I let the water on my head I have to think The razor or the heartbreak? I missed you and you don't care I kissed you and you only stare what's happened to us? when we were kids we never let go we were together and you promised me we'd never leave each other we'd be forever together but now... where are you? I'm still waiting but I'm already dead.

WEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

demonofyoursoul — 2008-05-07T14:47:49Z

The internet has been fixed!!!! I missed all u guys so effin much!!!! anywayz, I'm anxious. But I can only tell one person about it, and I've already told that person. Sry. I've been really emotionally deprived and full of pain lately. idk what it is. Maybe its salmonella. idk. I've been eating alot of raw cookie dough, thinking it will humanize me. like I said, idk. But anywayz, I've been doing well, I guess. I mean, when I'm at school, I'm always smiling and happy. But when I'm home, I'm always depressed, sad, miserable, and full of pain. I think its just how much I hate living in my house. I'm glad we're moving soon... :) Btw, GREAT news!!!! WE'RE STARTING 2 BUILD OUR HOUSE THIS WEEK!!!!!!! WEEEEE!!!! That means I get 2 go carpet and paint shopping 4 my room!!! I'm so excited. :DDDDDDDD :) I've felt so out of touch with the world, cuz when my internet was down, so was my phone. So I was completely cut off from the world. :( But everything is great now. I feel alot better. I feel more confident, and happy at home now. Just call me lucky 4 now. I'm still anxious, but I'm sure I'll get over it. Josh? I'm still waiting 4 u 2 message me back. :) No pressure, k? I hope I'm not forgetting anything... *thinks 4 a minute* nope, I think that covers it :) OH NO ITS NOT!!!!! sry, I almost forgot! Tonight (May 7, 2008) we're having... YUCK FEST!!!!!!!!!! I'm so excited about it!!! Anywayz, if u don't know what it is, I'll tell ya. Its this sticky stuff that we throw at each other, and it gets mixed in with the mud and grass, and then we throw it at each other and smash it in each other's faces. Its so much fun!!!! This is the second time its happening, so its gunna be fun. btw... *smushes yuck in ur face* have a great time without me tonight :) LUV U ALL!!!!!!!!!!! -Bailee ps (sry about the yuck) :)

Won't be here for a while

demonofyoursoul — 2008-05-05T08:42:48Z

I'm writing this from school (as fast as I can) and I just wanted 2 tell u guys that I won't be on 4 a while cuz my internet is being retarded. I miss u guys so much. I'm sorry I haven't been here 4 u guys, but just remember that I luv u all and care alot about u (Josh, Letty, Cassie, Rachel, and Aly :) etc. ) I hope we fix it soon, and then we'll party ;) Here r some personal notes just 4 u guys: Josh: U've been my best friend 4 the longest time, it seems like more than five months. I will always love u, and I hope that you love me 2. I care about u lots, and I hope u had fun at the beach. Stay safe, and we'll talk later, k? Luv ya my baby boy :) *a million hugs* Letty: I've grown close 2 u in a short ammount of time. I hope u don't miss me 2 much, and I hope u're staying strong like I asked. Remember don't cut urself (PLZ!!!!!) and don't u dare try and take ur life. People love you, and u just gotta say that someday everything will be better. I love you alot, and I hope u have fun with ur friends. Cassie: I'm sorry I haven't been online alot. I think of u everytime I hear the song "Cassie" by Flyleaf. I'll make sure my dad fixes the internet, and then we'll talk some more when he's asleep, k? I luv ya alot. Miss u 2. Rachel: You know ur my world. I love u til the end of time. *a million kisses* Aly: THANK U!!!!!!! LUV U ALL!!!! -Bailee Boo

Oh Joshy

demonofyoursoul — 2008-05-03T08:23:34Z

You may not realize it, but: *I love your laugh *I love your smile *I love your opinions *I love your words *I love your heart *I love you always. You may never guess it. You may not even suspect. But I'll always love u. U know that. I know that. We know that. But sometimes I feel like u want me back. Its hard 2 stand still. Its hard not 2 go with you. But I have 2 remain by my decision. I hate 2 keep bringing this back up. So let me finish with, I love you Josh.

I guess I'm back... :P / HAHA!!! I"M SMRTR THN U INTERNET!!!!

demonofyoursoul — 2008-05-01T04:37:37Z

Its almost impossible 4 me 2 leave with all the really cool friends I've got ( u know who u r :D ). Now, I've finally figured out what's wrong with my internet. It only works in the morning. (along with the phone). The phone and the internet don't work in the afternoon cuz there's no dial tone. :( So if u can, try and send everything near the morning hours of central time. :) its much appreciated. I have 2 tell you all what's up at my house: I have slow internet (its dial-up), and I'm only allowed on the computer 4 1 hour and a half. So I'm pinched 4 time. But, as u all know, 2 weeks ago I cut myself. (stupid mistake (forgive me)) and now my family knows. :(. I have 2 go 2 therepy on the 9th or 10th. I'm not looking forward 2 it tho... So anyway, since all this has happened, my dad has banned me from talking 2 people that I do not know (personally). So, this pretty much applies 2 all of you guys :'(. That's why I thought it was pointless to be on buzznet. But, I'll find a way 2 talk 2 all of you guys, k? I WILL FIND A WAY!!!!!!!!!!!! Love always, -Bailee Boo

Its pointless to be here

demonofyoursoul — 2008-04-29T04:55:20Z

y? because its all because of one razor I'm not allowed 2 talk 2 anyone that I don't know personally. I just had 2 tell someone that I cut myself ONCE. and now I'm paying for it. stupid ignorance... So if I can't talk to anyone I don't know personally, I'm pretty much saying good fucking bye to the whole website. :'( I've been aching for the longest time, and I'm going to therepy some time soon... This was entirely my fault. Josh, Cassie, Letty, and all those friends I've come so close to, I'm sorry that I have to leave you guys behind. I wish this wasn't so, but my dad says so. I'm so sorry that all of this was the cause of my selfish and retarded actions. I'm so sorry. I will never be able to say to you guys how truly sorry I am. Just, don't forget about me, ok? I need someone right now... I feel so alone... I won't be able to stop crying all day... I miss you guys so much... :'( this is goodbye... Forever in your heart, -Bailee

I feel everything you say I don't

demonofyoursoul — 2008-04-26T16:07:44Z

You say I don't understand
BULLSHIT.
You say I can't feel your pain
YOU LIE.
You say I"M the horrible friend?
I've never done anything but HELP YOU.
And now you hurt me?
I don't believe you anymore.
You never did care.
You never trusted me for one moment.
You never did anything but USE ME.
Guess what?
I HATE YOU AS WELL.
NO, NOT FUCK ME,
FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!
What have you ever done for me?
nothing. You never cared.
I've never felt so insulted by one person's horribly incorrect accusations toward another friend of mine.
I never really liked you anyway.
You know what?
I was tired of it all.
It was a UNANIMOUS DECISION!!!!!!!!
We all agreed that you guys were spending a little to much time together.
And now look where its gotten you.
Congrats Karlie,
you've officially
PISSED OFF THE WRONG PERSON!!!!!!!!!!!!

Another round of pain for the boys back home and the ticking time bombs we call hearts

demonofyoursoul — 2008-04-26T11:15:25Z

There's a simple request
I've got to make
and its only you can take
to take the talk
that I can't speak
so when I tell you everything I know
I hope that you're just listening
to everything that isn't me.
The's a broken heart
back in Chicago
and I don't have the tools to fix it
so now there's one in Minnesota
that doesn't know how to love
anymore,
anymore.
I'm living in the ruins
of all my burning lovers
and to all the broken brides
I say
There's no one who can hurt you;
only you.
There's a world outside my door
that can't remember our names
so if I die tomorrow
I doubt you'll miss me
so if I die
will the broken heart start healing
and all the lies revealing
everything you wish you weren't
tonight?
Tonight.
I'm bringing pain back
to a ticking time bomb I call a heart
has one left
and its you
so if you break me over your lips
I'm taking you with me
and no one can touch back with the world
who can no one understand
with the words I can't say
and the truth that cannot stay
I thank you for your help
but I'll find another lover
because I've had a few shots of pain
for the boys back home
and the girl back in my heart
which is still broken
and smoking out its time
so I've got one last lover
and I hope you're the right one
or its just another break down
another cut up
and one more scar on my wrist.
Lets hope
that you are my lover,
and my everything
sugar we're going down,
Rachel.

-Bailee Boo

Why are you the most beautiful creature I've ever seen?

demonofyoursoul — 2008-04-25T20:54:00Z

I've dreamt about you before
and in my dreams we never stop touching
we're always holding hands,
kissing,
or grabbing each other's asses.
I've never felt so in love with one person.
You make me want to kill myself
because I'm dying in your arms tonight
and I can't be without you
but i continue to wait
to see
if you're ever coming
for me.
I've held you before
but only in my dreams
did we touch
did we kiss

did we love

but now you are distant
but happy at heart
don't miss me, baby
just love me
and tell me everything's okay
because I love everything you never have
and I'm not going to give up on you
so hold my hand
with all your strength
kiss my lips
with all your passion
and carry me home
like i'm light as a feather.
I can feel your presence
it haunts me every night
a crawling up my back
with finger's icy delight.
You tease my lips
with a grace of yours
and when I realize the dream
the tears start to pour.
The screaming begins
and the pillow braces
the music blares
with the tear stained faces.
I miss you so much
how you kissed me tenderly
the you-on-top makeouts
and your personality
You hold my heart
inside your own at last
I will never let you go
until cold death has past.

I love you with all of my heart and soul,

-Bailee Boo

Why am I the voice no one wants to hear?

demonofyoursoul — 2008-04-25T14:07:38Z

Thanks alot, u bitch Vanessa. You and I got along great at times, until my "annoying voice" got 2 loud and gave u a headache. No, it wasn't me. Maybe it was the sixteen different perfumes u wear and apply every 2 seconds. Or maybe you just got jealous that I'm so flawlessly beautiful WITHOUT makeup :) (jk). I'm just better than you, and you just can't accept it. -Voices- Why am I the voice that no one wants to hear? I'm just speaking everything I know and everything you don't wanna hear. I'm called the voice of reason and I know what's best and right I could mislead you with a lie but that wouldn't set YOU straight. Your pissed off because I'm better because I'm everything you're not because I can keep it in my pants while the friction is red hot. You brag each day about a little tongue you share but I call you a slut behind your back this information I should share... I'm not as kind as I look or as I act to you because when you prod me with your hate will I pull out the claws and rip you to shreds. I hate it when you brag because you're just proving my point that you're everything I don't wanna be because you won't be a virgin by 9th grade. I wanna see u squirm and watch you from up on top watch you struggle with eight kids and one big ho of a boy you call your man who couldn't take a pinch much less a punch. I'm everything you wish your were so why are you staring? You call ME the slut and the bitch as well call me up and I'll fuck you up show you what bi means. Shove your face up close to mine and I'll tear it apart because I'm tired of all the shit you put on my plate so I'm dumping my meals all over you you stupid slut you aweful whore you daugher of a bitch and every generation in between I love to hate you and never will stop hating you. Why am I the voice no one wants to hear?

Holding you in my hands for as long as I don't live

demonofyoursoul — 2008-04-25T08:45:38Z

I found this on the Fall Out Boy website. I luv this pic!!!

The Red Wings of War

demonofyoursoul — 2008-04-24T15:23:11Z

Silver trails and silver linings and I'm just the beginning with the way I'm riding on the red wings of war with a scream I won't let stop just like the way I'm always fighting a war I know I'm going to lose and its me against myself its a tragity I'm always writing about the fighting its a war that I'm going to lose by losing you and losing everything I thought was right like my heart and my head and everything I ever loved But when I say I've never heard the beat I mean I've never felt you up and when I apologize for my absurd behavior I'll also say your so foxy Taking a dive into my life and break your neck on the shallow bottom of me when you say I'm always honest you mean when I'm lying and when I say that I love you and you don't love me back you know that I'm just dying My enemies are on the line and they're begging for me to stay but all they want is their names in my will and while I'm falling ill I'm thinking back to all the autumn days when you and me were rolling in the leaves and kissing in our tree fort so once I'm gone will you remember how I loved you and how I wished to kiss your neck like with every other day the rain would fall and the seperation killed us inside but now I'm dying because I've been wounded in the war that I can't stop between myself and just can never seem to stop someone needs to help me but I'm far to gone let your magic appeal to another's likings and I will hold you in my heart as the thing that keeps me alive even when I'm dead.

Deathbed lover

demonofyoursoul — 2008-04-24T14:57:53Z

I'm the plague of heartache and aching to get under your skin To make you want to rip it out and leave me to smile while I do business There's a sweet ringing in your ears that screams what not to do but I silence your thoughts with thoughts that make you cringe Hold me high above your hopes and bury me with your ambitions as a reminder that I'm not what you want to be and that I am what you are I miss how you use to sing and now all you do is cry I once use to have a voice now all I do is make it die Someone stop me someone love me again I'm crippeling inside and bleeding all i've ever had No one's here to save me I'm dying on the inside I'm shining on the out but aching on the in God why did you take me here why don't you take me away I'd give it all up to be with someone to be with the one to be...alive but I'm always killing what I've got and when the doors start to close I keep out the cold with thoughts of you but now you're gone and I feel alone and no one is here to make me stop to help me stop to help me to all those I've killed in the process of seeking you I'm sorry that you had ever laid eyes on one who never would love again and who would always be locked inside her own prison with white walls of pain and black nails of poison so when you caressed me I wished to do it back but I'm the poison for an ever lasting death and the tonic to all that ails you bury me with all your dreams so I can sleep with everything I know you are but you wish you were I know its you and I believe that one day you'll come back for me but I don't have much time to live in the moment so hold me to your heart as I put a bullet in mine I love you always and will keep you as my number one with a bullet and keep you as the sweetest dream I've ever had I will always love you my dearest kisser my sweetest wisher my always kind my instant rewind of everything I've ever loved and every time I've ever bled I love you, my bloody lover.